somewhere over the rainbow

That's where I'll be this weekend...somewhere over the rainbow. It's San Francisco Pride this weekend and I'll be there amongst the gays. I've never been, so I'm excited. I plan to have a great time this weekend, I need it!

I don't know if I'm more excited about the festival or escaping the 108+ degree weather that's expected here this weekend. Once i'm there amongst the hotties I'm sure I'll be generating my own heat wave. I hope you all have a great weekend also! Have fun!

i heard it through the grape vine...

I have recently been made aware of a rumor circulating amongst the old college crowd regarding my sexuality. Apparently, I have become a topic of conversation at parties, weddings, get togethers...I feel so popular. It all started innocently enough with me opting to post my sexual orientation on my MySpace account. I have gay friends who for whatever reason, maybe for this very reason, choose not to post their sexual orientation on their profile. I thought, fuck it...who cares? Apparently, many people do. Hell, had I known coming out would be this easy I'd have created my MySpace profile a long time ago. As most rumors go, this one has spread like wildfire.

I don't really care that people know, in fact I prefer that they do know that way I know who's fake. I guess what bugs me is that there are people out there who share this information freely without so much a thought about the consequences it might have for the person they're outting. Maybe I'm just biased, but I have a problem with someone going around outting people. I mean, coming out is a very personal choice and to have someone making that choice for me kind of gets under my skin. Granted I chose to post the information on my profile and it is available to anyone who happens upon my profile, but I'm not going around telling everyone and anyone that I'm gay.

I guess people don't realize the impact of outting someone. We live in a society that for the most part still frowns upon what it has labeled a "life style". Spreading that kind of rumor is totally different from spreading a rumor that, say I knocked someone up. Knocking someone up doesn't have the potential of hurting current or future relationships, unless you happen to knock up a friend's wife. Having one's sexuality advertised, especially in a straight male dominated field such as mine, runs the risk of hurting possible career relationships as well. On the upside, I wouldn't want to work for or with any homophobes anyway.

I guess I should be thankful that this rumor is doing all the leg work for me, as far as coming out to those around me. We'll see how all this goes down.

it's the first day of summer!

I don't remember summer starting so late. Well it seems late anyway. I guess because I always think of summer as starting at the beginning of June. Anyway, the weather her in the armpit of California had been mild and beautiful for the passed couple of weeks. With 101 degrees today and the 108 degrees expected here by week's end, we're quickly being snapped back to reality. I hope you all have some plans for this summer.

i'm addicted to cosmetic surgery!

Well, a show about cosmetic surgery anyway. A friend let me borrow Nip/Tuck season1 and season 2 and I am now hooked. I watched the entire season 1 DVD set over one weekend. Now I'm halfway through the second season. I love that show. It's very graphic in it's portrayal of the surgeries. It is almost like watching one of them reality shows on the Discovery Channel.

Sure, the plots twists and turns are sometimes obvious, but it's very entertaining nonetheless. Since I don't watch much TV anymore, this is kind of my guilty pleasure. I get home from work and I pop in the DVD and watch an episode or two. Very entertaining I tell ya. If you don't know of the show it runs on the FX network. I'm guessing from the material and language that it runs late at night. If you get a chance, check it out.

and now...an update!!!

So, how goes it? I guess I've been gone from my blog for a minute now. I feel bad for it, but I've just been lagging. No excuse other than just been laggin'.

Let's see where to begin. Not a whole lot has happened with me since my last post. On the health front, I bought a new bike and have begun cycling with my ex...though, I've been going at it alone lately. You know how that goes...you start something with a partner but then sooner than later you always end up doing it alone. Anyway, I hadn't realized how out of shape I actually was until I went on that 2+mile bike trail for the first time. That killed me! My second time was worse...I actually cramped up after the ride. The last time i was out riding I suffered from a bad sinus headache. I could barely see straight the pain was so bad and I had to drive clear across town back to my place. The trail I ride is at a park across town, but the trail is nice and leisurely. Well, except for all those damned hills! I think I have to go see a sinus specialist, 'cause I've been having lots of problems lately. Of course the bad air quality doesn't help any. Aside from that the weather had been beautiful here lately, rare for it being so late in June...oh but the triple digits are looming right around the corner. :(

On the romance side...nothing new to report. Still talking to the one guy and not sure if that's progressing at all. Sometimes I wish we could move forward and other times I'm glad we're just friends for now. This is the longest I've gone talking with someone without jumping into a relationship...almost 8 months now. Sometimes that line between being just friends and being boyfriends gets blurred and we have to remind eachother of it, 'cause there's been some misunderstandings and hurt feelings. Overall, though, we're managing. I guess the reason why I don't want to rush into anything with this guy, is 'cause when I'm in a relationship I'm in it for the long haul and I want to be sure I want to be with him and he wants to be with me. With my ex there was always the lingering doubt in the back of his mind and that's what ultimately ruined our relationship. So I refuse to put myself back out there like that.

Work is going okay. It's summer time, so all the faculty I usually deal with are out on vacation and so things here have been really slow. Next week I will be off all week and am not returning until the Wednesday after 4th of July. This weekend I will be heading up to San Francisco Pride. I've never been to SF Pride, but I hear it's a wild time. I can't wait! I sound so gay I know, but I just need to unwind like no other. You just don't understand.

That is it I guess. Nothing exciting told ya. I'm still alive though, and that's always a wonderful thing. I will try to keep yous all updated more often. I have to come up with one of them themed post days to keep posting regularly. I'll think of something...

I hope that you're all doing well out there. Drop me a line. Take care of you!